Dear people who think that they are Otaku,

STOP TRYING SO HARD. Okay so I'm not a big fan of other people watching anime, which may sound weird but is pretty normal considering me being one of the original otaku of this world, kinda, that makes me the center of information for newbies. I don't want to be the center though. I hate 3D people too much to actually help them let alone spend all my freaking time with them. I will not... can not deal with people or drama or being noticed. I'm the little hikikomori goth girl that no one cares about and I like my title. And for anyone who thinks 'Oh I'm going to watch anime just to make her mad' I will find you and I will break your face. Not even kidding, if you effect any of my fandoms or my cons I will end you. Most cons are already way over packed with the true fans that's fine, but it's the false fans that I hate. If you don't really like the shows and the merch and the cosplay then why try because you'll never be a true fan that spends all the money you have on anime merch and you'll never get into a show so much that you literally lose so much sleep and can't think straight. Because that's who we are. We the true otaku will never be normal and we are also fine with that. We will and want to lose so much sleep that we can't keep our eyes open and we want to be as broke as a bum because that just proves how much we really care. How much we really want to be apart of that world. Most people like me see anime as a safe haven or a savior. I have the strength to continue everyday because I feel like I actually have true friends in that world. The kind that won't stab you in the back. The only thing that bothers me about this is that most people haven't found a place to belong yet and they don't realize that with otaku there is no judging because if you look at what we watch and what we wear you'll get that we're judged enough for being ourselves and we wouldn't want to do that to anyone else EVER. To be perfectly honest I actually still haven't found my place in the world. This is something normal to say as a 12 year old kid, but being me I've always wanted to grow up and have responsibilities. Meaning that I think in my head that I have to go above and beyond for everything so I have to find my place. Don't get me wrong I'm part of the anime community but I'm so socially awkward that I always screw up and people usually get sick of me for mumbling or just plain not being able to talk at all. That's not the point, but anyways I've got to go for now so see you later.